I've been falling asleep late.
I've been drinking way too much coffee.
I've been distracted from things I should be concentrating on.
I've been having incredible people fall into my life.
A friend and I got to take photos in the Arts and Sciences Auditorium here at my university. For weeks, I wasn't sure what I wanted the photos to look like. I wasn't sure if I could muster up enough creativity to fit each personality. One of the girls I was taking photos of came up with an idea of balloons. We wanted it to look like she was getting carried away by them. Sometimes life makes me want to do this, float away with a bouquet of painted balloons, and wave goodbye to the earth below.
they carried us.
It's hard to describe my life lately, because I can't even remember what the date is sometimes. I feel like every day I crawl out of a stack of papers and books and take on the next task. I guess the correct word would be chaos. I substitute meals for cups filled with dark roast coffee filled up to the brim. But I feel like between the moments where I have to slow my heart down because of stress, I find such beauty in the little things. I found these poppies in the store and immediately knew that this is how I was feeling (photo below). I feel tangled and wrapped up in things.
we aren't letting our hearts collect dust
The last photo is one that I am absolutely in love with. Poor Nori, she lets me paint on her face, and this time, she let me glue moss onto her skin. I was walking through the dollar store and I found a bag of moss, looked at it and had no clue what I would do with it but I thought it might be alright. After I glued this stuff onto her face, I wasn't sure what I thought. It definitely looked different, and N was being awesome about it. But after I started taking photos, they quickly turned into some of my favorites from the shoot.
This just reminds me that we are roots. With earth day happening this past week, I felt like it really tied in to what I've been studying and hearing.
we are roots.
Thank you to all the girls who modeled for me this Friday. Your patience and faith in me really contributed to the fantastic memories.
I have so much to do and I can't seem to concentrate on it. It's incredible how much that needs to get done by the end of the year and it is a looming dark cloud over my head. I can feel my heart sink into a stationary spot in the corner and beat faster because of my anxiousness about finals. So I take breaks, I concentrate on the feeling of my heart beating to the rhythm of plucking banjo strings coming from my computer and let the moment just be. I miss the times where I knew where I was going in my life and I can't seem to find them again. I am running in the direction that seems best for my life and I am jumping hurdles as quickly as I can. I am realizing that not everyone agrees with my lifestyle, and not everyone thinks I am making good decisions for my future.
and i don't mind.
Because I'm happy where I am.