I know there is something bigger, something better, some plan for my life.
I'm just trying to find it.
For your reading pleasure, this is what I'm currently listening to while I write:
I'm attached to certain things and certain people for certain reasons. Those reasons I think are usually good ones. After having a conversation about dilemmas in my life with a good friend, I
realized how attached I am to people and how easily that attachment comes. I've always thought of it as a good thing that I am able to make friends and keep them so easily. (it's genetic) I've never had a problem connecting and talking to people. But the attachments come just as easily. And while this may seem like a good thing, I think it is also dangerous for my heart, for my soul. I guess in other words, it was decided that I love too much.
is that possible?
I try so hard to love everyone a lot. But it didn't occur until recently me that loving has consequences. Some people don't love you back, some people don't appreciate your love, some people take your heart and break it. There are those people. And then some people love you back, some people know that it is worth more than words, and these are the people I try to hang on to.
I guess, in conclusion, I do love too much. I love regardless of who you are because frankly, I think everyone should be loved. and yes, I probably do love too much, but I would rather put my heart into it and hope for it in return. Because thats who I am and what I do. So I will deal with all the attachments and the possibility of getting hurt in the hopes that someone will love me back.
My plans this weekend changed, so I am taking the camera and running away to some place to adventure. wish me luck.